Just So Yous Know...
Okay, I realize my latest entry (right below) is a little stronger than the others.
But, you need to know that this blog represents all of me: the teachery side and the woman side, the embarrassed little girl side, the spiritual side, the enterprising young African side....all of me.
This blog is more therapeutic for me, and less entertainment for you.
It's gonna be like that. If you don't like it, don't read it. Simple as that.
If you do like it and get something out of it, enjoy. Come back often. Stay longer.
Okay, bye.
J
10.19.2003
Nice Surprises
It's October, and I find myself in the beginnings of a relationship. I have to ask myself the same things that my boyfriend asks about falling for me, "What happened to me, baby?"
How did this all happen? Damn if I know, y'all. I tip-toed into this one. I try to be cautious because of how quick I have been to jump into a relationship in the past. But, meeting this guy came out of nowhere, when I wasn't really (supposed to be) interested in looking.
He is kind and he is a good person. He has good intentions and an honorable demeanor. I met him while I was sober. That's important because my last few encounters have happened as a result of heavy drinking, which I'm not proud of. But, it's necessary for me to tell you that so you understand how important our meeting is. He is not from the United States. I met him on vacation. He and I spent almost every day of my vacation together. We still keep in touch by phone weekly. He has no interest in moving to the United States. Maybe you think I'm being stupid about this, and this doesn't have a chance of lasting. That's a risk I'm willing to take though. S'okay with me, no matter how it turns out. I just know that I'm happy right now.
Strange thing, though. I just got a call from a former lover. We'll call him C. C has one of those irresistible charms and we were excellent in bed together. But all in all, we were f--k buddies at best. He called, and asked, "What's up? I haven't heard from you in a while...."
"Yeah, I know, just been busy with work and school," I replied.
C has never been known to mince words, with me or anyone else. He always seems to see right through my bullshit filter I throw up..."What? You have a boyfriend or something?"
"Yeah, I do." I said.
I can't believe I admitted this to C. C was my "alternate" in any relationship situations. If the shit didn't work out, I knew I could fall back on C--literally.
Now, C has been known for his temper and his straightforward way (which I've mentioned). I just knew that he would be ready to blow up at me, angry that I'm deciding to waste my time with this whole exclusive relationship thing AGAIN. Instead, as he has told me in the past, I should be coming to his arms, tentative though they might be.
But not this time. C just replied, "Oh alright. As long as you are happy. What's most important is that at the end of the day, you are happy."
I could've fell to the floor. I didn't though. Instead, I shrugged (as if he could see this over the phone) and said, "Oh, well thank you C. I'm glad that you're supporting me in this. I really like him."
We issued our "keep in touches" and hung up.
Wasn't sure how to feel for a minute there. But I decided that this feeling is nice. A nice surprise to see that people can change.
I am hopeful that this new relationship will be worth it...
J
It's October, and I find myself in the beginnings of a relationship. I have to ask myself the same things that my boyfriend asks about falling for me, "What happened to me, baby?"
How did this all happen? Damn if I know, y'all. I tip-toed into this one. I try to be cautious because of how quick I have been to jump into a relationship in the past. But, meeting this guy came out of nowhere, when I wasn't really (supposed to be) interested in looking.
He is kind and he is a good person. He has good intentions and an honorable demeanor. I met him while I was sober. That's important because my last few encounters have happened as a result of heavy drinking, which I'm not proud of. But, it's necessary for me to tell you that so you understand how important our meeting is. He is not from the United States. I met him on vacation. He and I spent almost every day of my vacation together. We still keep in touch by phone weekly. He has no interest in moving to the United States. Maybe you think I'm being stupid about this, and this doesn't have a chance of lasting. That's a risk I'm willing to take though. S'okay with me, no matter how it turns out. I just know that I'm happy right now.
Strange thing, though. I just got a call from a former lover. We'll call him C. C has one of those irresistible charms and we were excellent in bed together. But all in all, we were f--k buddies at best. He called, and asked, "What's up? I haven't heard from you in a while...."
"Yeah, I know, just been busy with work and school," I replied.
C has never been known to mince words, with me or anyone else. He always seems to see right through my bullshit filter I throw up..."What? You have a boyfriend or something?"
"Yeah, I do." I said.
I can't believe I admitted this to C. C was my "alternate" in any relationship situations. If the shit didn't work out, I knew I could fall back on C--literally.
Now, C has been known for his temper and his straightforward way (which I've mentioned). I just knew that he would be ready to blow up at me, angry that I'm deciding to waste my time with this whole exclusive relationship thing AGAIN. Instead, as he has told me in the past, I should be coming to his arms, tentative though they might be.
But not this time. C just replied, "Oh alright. As long as you are happy. What's most important is that at the end of the day, you are happy."
I could've fell to the floor. I didn't though. Instead, I shrugged (as if he could see this over the phone) and said, "Oh, well thank you C. I'm glad that you're supporting me in this. I really like him."
We issued our "keep in touches" and hung up.
Wasn't sure how to feel for a minute there. But I decided that this feeling is nice. A nice surprise to see that people can change.
I am hopeful that this new relationship will be worth it...
J
10.11.2003
Man I'm Tired....
Well, I've done it. I took down my 2 year old site, JennyKinscy.com. It's official. My writing can no longer be found there.
I feel saddened by this, but I guess I'll be okay. Nothing like file backups to make a girl feel secure about a decision like this. I had to take it down, though. It was becoming more of a headache to update than anything else.
This will give me a chance to start new, with another project. Clean slate feel good.
My next step is to get this computer checked out. There are so many little buggy things and errors that pop up....coming online has become a chore. I don't even do half of the fun stuff I used to do online anymore.
Now that I've lived through this first iteration of my site, I can move on, with this little knowledge in my pocket. I set out to do something else next time. This time was just a freaking mish-mosh of stuff just being thrown up.
In other news, my life is okay. I feel less and less like I'm swimming through mud. This site was a big weight. Now, the others.
Oh, did I mention that I am reallly behind in my grad school work? Shit! I've been so damned lazy. Time to get my ass in gear and keep my 4!!!! Argh!
Okay, well, I've got to get outtta here if my laundry is going to be done and crossed off of my little "to do" list for this week.
Peace and Blessings,
J
Well, I've done it. I took down my 2 year old site, JennyKinscy.com. It's official. My writing can no longer be found there.
I feel saddened by this, but I guess I'll be okay. Nothing like file backups to make a girl feel secure about a decision like this. I had to take it down, though. It was becoming more of a headache to update than anything else.
This will give me a chance to start new, with another project. Clean slate feel good.
My next step is to get this computer checked out. There are so many little buggy things and errors that pop up....coming online has become a chore. I don't even do half of the fun stuff I used to do online anymore.
Now that I've lived through this first iteration of my site, I can move on, with this little knowledge in my pocket. I set out to do something else next time. This time was just a freaking mish-mosh of stuff just being thrown up.
In other news, my life is okay. I feel less and less like I'm swimming through mud. This site was a big weight. Now, the others.
Oh, did I mention that I am reallly behind in my grad school work? Shit! I've been so damned lazy. Time to get my ass in gear and keep my 4!!!! Argh!
Okay, well, I've got to get outtta here if my laundry is going to be done and crossed off of my little "to do" list for this week.
Peace and Blessings,
J
10.04.2003
Donating to My Classroom
Looking to adopt my classroom???
I need your help folks. I want my next year’s fifth grade to be fully stocked and ready to go. If you know anyone who can donate any of these materials, I would be forever grateful:
-Student-friendly Books or Magazines or other reading material
-Office supplies in good condition – (pens, pencils, markers, paper, paper clips, staples, staplers, folders, notepads, post-its etc.)
-furniture (specifically tables, bookshelves, rugs etc.)
-Computers or Computer Accessories
-Computer supplies of any kind
OR
You can just refer them here, and they can adopt my classroom officially:
Looking to adopt my classroom???
I need your help folks. I want my next year’s fifth grade to be fully stocked and ready to go. If you know anyone who can donate any of these materials, I would be forever grateful:
-Student-friendly Books or Magazines or other reading material
-Office supplies in good condition – (pens, pencils, markers, paper, paper clips, staples, staplers, folders, notepads, post-its etc.)
-furniture (specifically tables, bookshelves, rugs etc.)
-Computers or Computer Accessories
-Computer supplies of any kind
OR
You can just refer them here, and they can adopt my classroom officially:
Rising in the Fall
Well, autumn is here, and it has been ages since I posted on here. So many changes have happened.
I went away for the summer. This is good, people!! It's been at least 2 years since I traveled before this August, which I spent in the Dominican Republic. I had such a good time there with my girls.
I even tripped up and met a guy there (big surprise). I use those parenthetical remarks for two reasons. 1) If you know anything about me, then you know it's really not all that hard for me to meet a guy. I'm quite friendly, and; 2) If you've ever been to the Dominican Republic and you're a woman, then you know how friendly the men are there. So, all in all, I suppose it was bound to happen.
His name, for the purposes of anonymity on this blog, is B. I don't know what it is about B, but he is special to me. He and I hit it off from the get-go, and stayed hitting it off. Throughout my stay, we spent a lot of time together, and it was hard for us to part when my trip ended.
He and I are still in touch. I wonder where we will go together.
I have also begun my second year as a teacher. And, oh my Goddess, what a big difference from last year!!! Actually the whole atmosphere of the school is different than before. Throngs of little wannabe thugs roamed the hallways, destroying bulletin boards and defacing classroom doors along the way. This year, the school is so much calmer, as an institution of learning should be.
The change in administration really made a difference. I really feel like our prinicipal is in our corner instead of against us this year. Of course, there are still wrinkles to be ironed out, but when isn't there when major changes take place.
I've also decided that I will be posting a lot more of my thoughts as they come to me on this site. I am officially (sniffle) taking down my other website, JennyKinscy.com. While it was a great idea and undertaking, it has become a giant dinosaur of a site (aka a giant pain in the ass). So, I'm willing to start freshly with this blog.
I spent this summer doing things, especially relaxing and "getting back in touch with myself." Hokey though it may sound, it was exactly what I needed. It was necessary for me to go inward to find out just what elements I absolutely need in my life. I was surprised at how much I could actually do without.
Because of that, I've come to realize that there's one essential thing for me now: simplicity. I want my life to be as simple as possible.
In the past I've done lots of talking about clearing clutter. And, damn, that really caught on in my life. Since I started, I see how much I really crave it in my life. I cleared out physical junk from my closets, cabinets and drawers, and things are flowin', y'all!! So much so, that I am able move to the level of emotional and spiritual clearing as well.
I have so much hope about things now. I have a good feeling about my future, wherever that may take me. And, I don't feel as much anxiety as I had in the past.
I'll continue to let you know how it goes for me.
Until then,
Blessings
J
(c) 2003, Jenny Kinscy and JennyKinscy.com, All Rights Reserved.
Well, autumn is here, and it has been ages since I posted on here. So many changes have happened.
I went away for the summer. This is good, people!! It's been at least 2 years since I traveled before this August, which I spent in the Dominican Republic. I had such a good time there with my girls.
I even tripped up and met a guy there (big surprise). I use those parenthetical remarks for two reasons. 1) If you know anything about me, then you know it's really not all that hard for me to meet a guy. I'm quite friendly, and; 2) If you've ever been to the Dominican Republic and you're a woman, then you know how friendly the men are there. So, all in all, I suppose it was bound to happen.
His name, for the purposes of anonymity on this blog, is B. I don't know what it is about B, but he is special to me. He and I hit it off from the get-go, and stayed hitting it off. Throughout my stay, we spent a lot of time together, and it was hard for us to part when my trip ended.
He and I are still in touch. I wonder where we will go together.
I have also begun my second year as a teacher. And, oh my Goddess, what a big difference from last year!!! Actually the whole atmosphere of the school is different than before. Throngs of little wannabe thugs roamed the hallways, destroying bulletin boards and defacing classroom doors along the way. This year, the school is so much calmer, as an institution of learning should be.
The change in administration really made a difference. I really feel like our prinicipal is in our corner instead of against us this year. Of course, there are still wrinkles to be ironed out, but when isn't there when major changes take place.
I've also decided that I will be posting a lot more of my thoughts as they come to me on this site. I am officially (sniffle) taking down my other website, JennyKinscy.com. While it was a great idea and undertaking, it has become a giant dinosaur of a site (aka a giant pain in the ass). So, I'm willing to start freshly with this blog.
I spent this summer doing things, especially relaxing and "getting back in touch with myself." Hokey though it may sound, it was exactly what I needed. It was necessary for me to go inward to find out just what elements I absolutely need in my life. I was surprised at how much I could actually do without.
Because of that, I've come to realize that there's one essential thing for me now: simplicity. I want my life to be as simple as possible.
In the past I've done lots of talking about clearing clutter. And, damn, that really caught on in my life. Since I started, I see how much I really crave it in my life. I cleared out physical junk from my closets, cabinets and drawers, and things are flowin', y'all!! So much so, that I am able move to the level of emotional and spiritual clearing as well.
I have so much hope about things now. I have a good feeling about my future, wherever that may take me. And, I don't feel as much anxiety as I had in the past.
I'll continue to let you know how it goes for me.
Until then,
Blessings
J
(c) 2003, Jenny Kinscy and JennyKinscy.com, All Rights Reserved.
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